Watch Out For That Giant Red Pole
I thought I woud share this with you:
Last night as I was leaving class, I got into my car in the parking structure, starting driving and turned right into a concrete poll smashing the ENTIRE left side of my car!!! No one cut me off, no one turned into me, no one was even within 100 feet of my car or the pole…I just did not see the 16 ft high, 2 foot wide RED fucking thing!!!
As I started driving home, I was stunned and freaked out and devastated and angry and panicked and a whole other mix of emotions I can’t describe!! My brain (I don’t know which side) did the following: holy shit…poor me…I’ve been going a million miles a minute, not sleeping properly, not eating properly, I havent spent an evening with my fiance in…uhm…shit…I can’t remember! I’m running out of money to pay for all this acting stuff. I…wait…SHIT…I don’t have time to take my car in before tomorrow…my driver’s side door won’t open…what if I get stranded on the road?…I NEED my car tomorrow…I have a table read for “Criminal Minds” tomorrow for God’s sake…my first paid acting job EVER…wait a minute…I have a table read tomorrow…I booked a job!…I booked a job!!!…OH MY GOD…who gives a flying fuck about the rest of the shit??? I booked a job!!!!!! Wait…is this why this is happening to me…was I gloating?? Is this the evil eye?? Oh mom, get out of my head!!!! I booked a job!!!! All is well, this is really JUST inconvenient!!!
Then I continued driving home feeling AMAZING…weird, right??!!!
I’ll share my favorite quote with you: “Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive! — Dr. Howard Thurman.”
I’ve done SO many different things in my life, had great success in the corporate world…and hated every minute of it!! For the first time in my life, I feel alive, I feel like I’m doing what I was made for and I am wildly stupidly happy!!!!! The rest is just stuff…
Thanks for always reinforcing what I’m feeling…you’re AMAZING!!!! So few teachers ever touch on these things, when they are the juice that keeps us going and makes it all worth it. So, THANK YOU!!!!!!!
Now, off to my table read yo’ !!!!!!!!!